Lets Talk Pushy

Now, I'm not saying pushy people and parents or what not don't help any given situation, because lets face it, we all know sometimes you just need someone to be like "get out of bed and sort yourself out". However, what if those people are pushing you to do something you really have no heart to do anymore? What would you think, how would you feel? Ask yourself, if you truly had no interest in something, beyond all possible choices, what would you do? Personally, i know i would no longer pursue what ever it was that i had lost interest in.

I mean there is a difference between loosing interest in something, and total no wanting to do that particular thing ever again wouldn't you agree. Now, here is were the problem arises. Firstly, a lot of money was spent on the thing that i no longer wish to even remotely enjoy anymore. By enjoy i mean on a professional and educational level. As a hobby i am fine with it, in fact i usually excel much better in it. So yeah, some epic coinage has passed through my little fingers, something in the region of lets say...six grand. Now that is quite a lot of money, but here is the thing, it's a loan, i don't have to pay back for a very long time, if not ever. So really I'm not going to feel the sting of it, maybe ever. Perhaps that's a terrible way of looking at it but hey there we go.

The second issue with this is that it is a degree, well a foundation degree. Everyone is telling me finish it, you will hold a better standing with others if you finish the degree for jobs etc. Well to be honest, that may be true. Yet, what if i know my plan and my passion now, and it is so far nothing to do with that degree, that even a degree holds no power in what i need. I mean i literally have no use for a degree for what i want to do. In fact, i was accepted onto the thing i wanted to do, and i couldn't do it, because of my degree!

So maybe I'm just being another raging student like thousands of others, or maybe I'm realising that what I'm doing isn't making me happy. We live in this life one time, then we are gone. We should enjoy what we are doing, be happy make memories and live life how we want to live it. That's what i want to do, that's how i want to live, to follow happiness in whatever it takes me.