Wolf In Sheeps' Clothing

You know the situation, you walk into a room and people stare at you. You know not of their names, nor they know of yours, there is some awkward silence that fills the air until one of you decides to muster the courage to say something along the lines of "alright". Yes, that was the very situation i found myself in as i walked through the door of my new store.

Now it wouldn't be so bad, but I've transferred from my previous store after a minor promotion, so this gives me some form of authority. Alas, walking into a new store commanding respect and a position of authority does not ever really go down with people, now does it. Maybe you've witnessed a new manager appear from the the shadows, and you've given them that look of hatred because they started barking orders without even asking your name. Would I be right?

Well in light of that social situation I've decided... fuck that! I'm going to try and not be hated by the greater half of the staff! I shall gain their trust, then when the coast is clear BOOM! Out comes some small 'asks', then slowly but surely i can be back to normal. Maybe they will never even notice my cunning plan! Here is hoping!

Caking Myself Doesn't Even Cover It!

Sooo, the time has come where i shall leave my little comfort zone, and move to another job location. Which results in me, as you've guessed, positively and sometimes uncontrollably caking my little pants! Now, i know a lot of people get new jobs all the time, you might have gotten a new job recently. But i can't help but horrifically nervous!

Like anyone at a new job, we all can't help but wonder if there will be some horrible people. Like that guy who hates everyone for no reason, or the other guy who has more personalities than Kim Kardashian has marriages. But hopefully there will be some nice people who won't want to kill me or give me that long stare like a crazy person.

Vlogs, Blogs and Emma Stone

Please good god, how difficult is it to act when you've never done anything remotely close to it before! Now i know it takes a lot of skill, but I've never realised how much it does take. By all this i refer to my Vlog videos in which i had tried to up the ante by throwing in some humours measures.

Hopefully i can step up these Vlogs and get some laughter going on. I really enjoy making them, even though it does take time and effort, so hopefully this enjoyment can translate to you, the potential viewers.

On another note, these blogs have been rather scarce in their production, however I guess i don't want to make these blogs a 'dairy' type thing. Therefore I'm trying to make these subject matters something of interest at least. Although re-reading this blog it does seem to have a certain 'oh dear diary' quality to it.

Oh and one more thing, Emma Stone oh my god, oh my god Emma Stone!

I'm Back!

Finally, my tripod came for my camera, which only took a few days so that's pretty sweet, thank you amazon.co.uk! So hopefully this means i will be posting more videos now since i stopped for a while, because i didn't want to make videos while constantly holding the camera. Why, i don't now but hey that's how my mind works apparently.

So yeah, i thought I'd just put this on my blog so if any of you pass by and want to check them out then you can.

That right there is my latest video. I'm still working on talking to the camera and trying to get my personality right but in time hopefully these videos will actually be some what entertaining. I'd love to start making some really good quality videos, with some interesting sketches in. I best start writing ideas down don't you think! 

But for now i thought I'd share my wee update with you all. Thanks for reading, and perhaps watching...;) 

Bottom Of The Evening To Me

This title was brought you by saying the exact opposite of what we think every Irish person says "top o the morning' to yeh". Which I'm pretty sure means, good morning, so what exactly 'bottom of the evening to me' would mean i have absolute no idea what so ever! What do you think? This blog was also brought to you by this bunny.

Keylie The Vigilane Bunny! 

This bunny does have a back story to her, however maybe we shall save that for a later date perhaps.

However moving on from that, this blog doesn't have much of a topic today really. Well perhaps i can inform you that i will be living in my humbled abode for another solar cycle...a year to normal people. So looks like I've officially and completely moved out of my dad's house now. After moving out for two years i think it's safe to say, i probably won't be moving back in unless i become so far broke i need to! Lets all hope that doesn't happen, yes that means you too, be nice and hope!

Seemingly, I've clearly dropped 'uni' and i couldn't be happier about it, yes i do worry that I'm no longer a student, therefore what is my life. However, i have my plan and hopefully if things go right, i can become the person i want to be, with the career i am ready to do. So here is to a nice new start, and hopefully all the things you are doing are what you want to do and make you happy!

I Fly On A Metal Cage With Four Wheels!

As my title suggestions, i have neither grew up or found flying around a super market on a trolley any less entertaining than it was when i was five. But you may agree with me here when i say that, is it not just a wonderful thing in life when you can just unleash the idiotic child from within!

This describes myself on my super market trips!

If only someone would have challenged me to a drag race around the supermarket! It would have been a crazy Sainsbury's version of Mario kart, except instead of red/green shells I'd be throwing birthday cakes and throwing apples as a crazy power up! Come on, who wouldn't want to be apart of that amazing event! Perhaps it should be an event. Oh my god, I've just found my life calling!

Other than flying around on my soap box made of metal, I'd say it was a successful trip to the shops. I keep having the sudden realisation, as i look at the best deals for juice and milk, that I'm growing up more than i thought. Although I'm doing what would be considered as 'adult' behaviour, i still feel like I'm sixteen. Maybe one day i might think I'm an adult, when I'm thirty four!

Mario Kart Super Market Sweep, watch out! It's going to be a thing!!!

So Maybe I'm Obsessed

It's come to my attention, although definitely not for the first time at least, that i may just slightly be obsessed with the Internet. Or more accurately with, Facebook, Twitter, YouTube, Blogger, Tumblr amongst other things. But really i love passing the time by blogging or Vlogging or chatting to folks from all over the place. What about you, are you just as obsessed as me. If you are please say hello i love to meet people like me.

Quite literally i can get up in the day lets say 11am (more like 2pm most days) and load up my little laptop *insert day here* closes laptop at 2am. My life right there, and you know what, i don't even mind, i love it it's freaking great. I've met lots of great people online and formed some amazing friendships that i never would have. Most of all, I've found hobbies that help me practise my skills in certain areas, like Vlogging. I'm not saying anything, but what am i saying is that sh*t takes some time! Now i don't mean, oh this will only be 2 hours max. Oh no no no, this sh*t can take 6 hours to do. All for one little video as well i may add. Yet, it's something i find really fun, especially if i like the end product.

Who knows maybe i can make a career out of my little hobby shall we call it. I'd frickin love to just Vlog a few times a week and that would be my job. Aww imagine it, how awesome would it be! Tripod is on the way, so hopefully it will happen soon enough!



Also, i would add, Vlog might get Emma Blackery to notice me... My Wife, My Queen!! I mean...ummm...Goodbye!

Tattoo Of The Nerds!

I braved what a lot of people have braved before. I ventured into the unknowing, however knowing what I was getting into. I lay down, i braced myself... I got inked!

Not just any ink however, this is quite possibly the nerdiest thing i have ever done in my entire life! By which i mean, the tattoo is one hundred percent nerdgasm. The tattoo is a selection of things from The Legend Of Zelda series from Nintendo. For all of you who don't know what this is, i would sincerely advise you to go check it out. This game was very much a gigantic part of my childhood. I've played the games for as long as i can remember.

As i kid i used to want to be the main character (Link) because he was so cool and represented courage and honour. Which is part and parcel the reason for the tattoo, as it hold significant meaning to me. By which i look at it and remember i should try and be courageous and honour myself and others. That and clearly I've become another nerd!

So, here is a question. What's the nerdiest thing you've done or will admit to doing. Have a think about that as you finish reading this wee blog for today.

Lets Talk Pushy

Now, I'm not saying pushy people and parents or what not don't help any given situation, because lets face it, we all know sometimes you just need someone to be like "get out of bed and sort yourself out". However, what if those people are pushing you to do something you really have no heart to do anymore? What would you think, how would you feel? Ask yourself, if you truly had no interest in something, beyond all possible choices, what would you do? Personally, i know i would no longer pursue what ever it was that i had lost interest in.

I mean there is a difference between loosing interest in something, and total no wanting to do that particular thing ever again wouldn't you agree. Now, here is were the problem arises. Firstly, a lot of money was spent on the thing that i no longer wish to even remotely enjoy anymore. By enjoy i mean on a professional and educational level. As a hobby i am fine with it, in fact i usually excel much better in it. So yeah, some epic coinage has passed through my little fingers, something in the region of lets say...six grand. Now that is quite a lot of money, but here is the thing, it's a loan, i don't have to pay back for a very long time, if not ever. So really I'm not going to feel the sting of it, maybe ever. Perhaps that's a terrible way of looking at it but hey there we go.

The second issue with this is that it is a degree, well a foundation degree. Everyone is telling me finish it, you will hold a better standing with others if you finish the degree for jobs etc. Well to be honest, that may be true. Yet, what if i know my plan and my passion now, and it is so far nothing to do with that degree, that even a degree holds no power in what i need. I mean i literally have no use for a degree for what i want to do. In fact, i was accepted onto the thing i wanted to do, and i couldn't do it, because of my degree!

So maybe I'm just being another raging student like thousands of others, or maybe I'm realising that what I'm doing isn't making me happy. We live in this life one time, then we are gone. We should enjoy what we are doing, be happy make memories and live life how we want to live it. That's what i want to do, that's how i want to live, to follow happiness in whatever it takes me.

One More Thing

Also just as a footnote to my previous blog, I will be charting my changing in lifestyle, and my goal of finding who I am, and what I want to do in life through these blogs. As well as my YouTube channel, so hopefully you can relate to my experiences, to what you are doing in your own life. But I shall talk more about this to you later.

Oops

I seem to have neglected my blog for a few days, not because i got bored of it or anything like that. More so because this week has been some what hectic and a week of thinking.

In a productive sense, this week has been well, lacking entirely. I'm pretty sure i've seen cows do things far more productive than anything i've done this week. I suppose bar my bands Vlog at least. The simple fact i've done nothing all week is not the point of this blog today, however it does walk hand in hand into what i will be saying.

Even though nothing happened all week or at least since Monday, it was something of a welcomed experience for me. I'm fortunate enough to have the ability at least to not have to do anything all week because I'm in a position where, yes i am at uni, but i can bunk off and not have not be worried about the impending doom of bills. Perhaps that is a bad thing, however i do know the full extent of working full time and needing to work otherwise bills don't get paid, since i have done this before. But anyway, the thing is, this week helped me to relax and recover from a few different things.

Firstly, education. It's something I've experience for a solid eighteen years straight, apart from the obvious holidays between terms. Que the ranty student talk! After eighteen years of learning and doing exams coursework, I've become tired. Forgive me if I'm wrong in saying this, but I'm sure many of you are like this too. This is something i know i need a break from. Perhaps i will be crying in my sleep because i will realise how stupid i was, and be begging to be a student again. Screaming WHY LORD WHY DID YOU NOT STOP ME!!! But, we shall see won't we.

Secondly, for the past year now, I've been beating my body senseless with the gym, making routines to get bigger and stronger, and not necessarily taking much of a break to let my body just relax. As much as people like to think, that the gym isn't mentally taxing, those of you who do go will understand where i am coming from. It's hard living your life a certain way to achieve and ascertain certain goals and set targets. I like to think, i am quite good at doing what i need to do to progress forward without being unbearably strict on myself. Yet even so, sometimes more than a days break is needed from the whole lifestyle and routine of it all. Consider this a mini holiday from life, just not nearly as expensive as an actual holiday.

So maybe this is something i need for myself, and although this is partly a rant, i hope some of you can agree with the times I'm saying, not necessarily the exact factors, but the view points I'm talking about.

Blog Where Did You Go?

I had literally just written out an entire blog for today, saved it sent it one my phone then went to check it and POOF! It had magicked away, dam you blog stealer where ever you may be, i guess i shall start again hmm.

Mostly i was talking about how I've literally done nothing all day, and i when i say nothing i mean nothing, an ant with a large backpack weighing a gazillion tonnes would have had a more productive day than me. I don't know what it was i just couldn't find the 'time' to do anything, other than you know, sit on Facebook/twitter/youtube/the Internet/sleep. I mean it's not like i like doing nothing (though i do) but sometimes when you get in the mood of doing nothing you keep on doing nothing :D.

I think i tried to pass the time by going to the shop for milk... that's when you know you really ought to start doing something with your day don't you think? Ask yourself what do you do when you are trying to do nothing, or avoiding doing some task you know you should be doing.

I've also been thinking about uni, it's okay just i reckon I'm getting a bit tired or the education system now, I've been in it for lets say err 18 years not. HOLY F**K NUGGETS BATMAN! 18 years of my LIFE, wow... yeah i really do think it's time for a break, to just work save up some coinage and do something other than look at an essay with a blank vacant expression.

Any who, I hope this has entertained you for a few minutes today, if it did that's awesome! If it didn't well then... you can just...

Procrastination

You'd think that this would be a job in itself the humble art of procrastination... but then you remind yourself, no no you're literally just way to lazy to bother your arse with the smallest of tasks. I mean sometimes it's hard to stretch that extra five inches to reach the remote or the long arduous walk to the kitchen, when you know (and i know you know) that you will look in that fridge, and what will you find. Nothing, always nothing but you'll look again i know you will!

Now I'm not saying that procrastinating is a good thing, i mean if we all did it well... nothing much would get done now would it, but hey that's for those get up and get 'em kinda people to sort out. I'd love to be one of those guys, i would i really would. It just seem i get bored so easily, i don't know why! I need to bother my rear end more and do some stuff...starting tomorrow! Naaaaaah!

I would say I'm good at doing this things i love, i get out and go to the gym 4 times a week, practise my guitar, sit on YouTube for 9-10 hours a day. I live a pretty busy lifestyle wouldn't you say?

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Oh You Internets!

I think we all have those moments were you could meet someone from the Internet because they seem so god dam awesome! You sit there in your chair, looking like a penguin that just realised, NO I DON'T HAVE TO BE COLD HERE, I WANNA GO TO HAWAII!!!! Which basically means you're sitting there open mouthed, big round eyes with that kind of glaze that happens when you see a dog do a back flip and offer you £100, yeah that look.

But what would we do if we actually meant them, I mean seriously come on! I was wondering what I would do if I met some of the people I idolise or how should I put it, want to be like. Personally, I think I would just sit there looking at them and saying absolutely nothing as they spoken and I listened but at the same time (my this is a long sentence) played romantic music were we would just dance together and they would say I'm awesome and how much they want me to be in their videos... ehem... What I meant to say was, yeah I'd totally share ideas and discuss topics on modern culture and the meaningful things in life anyhow totally NOT nerdy I am.

So the question is, what would you do if you met some of the famous people you wanted to meet. I don't mean what would you want to do, I mean what would you really do, because we all know no-one is as cool as this think they are in their heads... Or maybe you are, in fact, yes, yes you are, you're awesome like a dog that does back flips and gives you money!

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Ex's Dam Them!

Maybe you all might agree but Ex's just get in the way! It's like trying to get through a small tunnel while a giant fat beaver stands in the way looking at you sideways holding some sort of anti fun gun!

But anyway, I'm off out for my sisters birthday so I shall forget this beaver nonsense and dance somewhat like a cross between gangnam style and penguin on acid. By which point everyone may look at me in either amazing awe or shear fear.

If anyone reads, I would 't say no to comments or suggestions about video blogging stuff, maybe a q&a. Also I was thinking maybe video blogging buddies? I know there is a good YouTube community but I'd love one to be around here too!!! Even if you are from far and wide comment away :).

Late Night Hunger!!

Is anyone else like me and when it comes to night time suddenly you become wide awake and get most of things you want to done. I always seem to get creative and motivated when everyone else is making sweet drool covered love to their pillows!

I mean sure yeah I could be a normal person and sleep at normal times but where is the fun in that. Sometimes my fridge gets so lonely it needs my company, hell I'm doing the world a service. With me it would have committed a fridge suicide by turning itself into a microwave!

Speaking of fridges and food, all this talk of it is making me just a tad hungry...and it's almost four in the morning! Hmm what to eat though? This is why I love being back at my dads, he has food lots of food! And I can eat it and it doesn't cost me a single penny!!

To those who haven't come here from my video blogs on YouTube check them out they are somewhat interestingly bad :D!

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